Life in general is a huge learning curve. Have you ever suffered the loss of someone dear to you, a family member, someone you thought you could never give up or live without. A friend or family maybe? How did it feel? How did you move on from it? Even with death, I’m usually cold. Not that I’m a cold person, I just never really know how to deal with good byes; even when initiated by me. Generally, I may seem like I am emotional, but I’m not an overly emotional person. I show my emotion usually with people I’m close to. I wear my heart on my sleeve, I bear my soul. I speak my truth, I never hide anything, but the moment I perceive that I am being taken for granted, I gradually lock everything away. Because strength and vulnerability are friends. In leaving people be, I rather protect my innocence than have one who ought to nourish it rubbish it. It’s hard for me to accept being taken for a fool.
You may love someone deeply, someone who knows your Achilles heels and they may die a literal death or an imaginary one. Sometimes, you may have to make decisions that will help you deal as a person because sometimes, the people who mean the most to you could cost you the most; especially when you have expressed your concern and you’re not being listened to. I think I’m becoming a motivational speaker…I got jokes 🙂
I already have had a few of these moments of letting go and it’s only March. One with a family member…I tell people and I don’t know if this is a Taurus thing, but the same way I love, it’s the same way I dislike/hate…intensely. I don’t know, but it has to be that way. Once I shut out, I shut out…I give myself the closure I need and keep it moving.
I follow Jay Shetty on Instagram. Through my tough decisions, I found answers on his page. I had always thought myself a failure in relationships, work and some things in my life. But after listening to him and watching a video he posted of Will Smith talking about failure, I embraced my failures and all my pain. I looked at it as something positive. Sometimes, you have to fail or feel pain for good things to materialize in your life. You have to understand that sometimes, getting to a bigger goal requires leaving certain people behind( be it family or friends) and do the most unfathomable thing of walking away. Tenderness is not weakness…
I have bore my thoughts, now let’s talk about being unable to walk away from meat pies. Baked dough, filled with meat and vegetables.